Wednesday, August 26, 2015

The Power Of The Strava

A few years ago someone suggested I try this Strava thing... The social activity tracker app allows your phone to GPS your time/distance/location and more data points to showcase your ride, and your shredding ability. So I did. And I didn't like it. At the time I was more or less focused on a different type of, well, me. The me I was racing was one recovering from some personal shit that didn't involve people online, I was racing against myself. And this has been true for the last four years. My competitive self was fighting for the life I wanted to live, compared with the life I was living (if that makes any sense). My point is I wasn't focused on improving as a mountain biker, or improving much at all. Enter a wake up call that's changed my life... 

Very recently, there came a moment that moved everything in to focus. Or better yet, the fog is starting to clear. In a lot of ways, I'm taking this opportunity to develop a greater sense of who I want to be, and what's most important. I'm getting back to the roots of what's driven me as a person for most of my life - training. And now, I'm in a place to use Strava. 

I'm sure this seems silly, but there's power in data and tracking one's performance. I feel as though I'm more or less committed to driving hard to perform, to focus my talent on going faster and faster. In other words, I feel Strava is reminding me to do better, and the data helps! So, if you're wondering how to track my rides/skills, well my profile is here, and feel free to follow - If you want to follow my life, well talk to me on the trail some time!

Thursday, August 20, 2015

Tuesday, August 04, 2015

Robert Frost - The Road Not Taken

I've gotten in to this habit of reading a poem a day... As for today, and what this day represents, I chose The Road Not Taken, by Robert Frost. I'm partial to Frost, as his uniquely American voice captures so much of what we feel as short-term members of this country. Enjoy, and think about the different road you may take on day... 

Sunday, August 02, 2015

The Shadow, And Rumi

The first time I read Rumi, the 13th Century Persion poet, I was in college at the University of Oklahoma. However, his words didn't sit with me then... The second time I read Rumi I was in a sauna in San Francisco going to a Grateful Dead show. Let's just say his words stuck deep within me...

Now, I'm pretty much hooked on the power of Rumi's visuals and powerful narrative. One of the latest poems that's caught my attention is
Who Says Words With My Mouth. If I may be so bold as to provide my interpretation and analysis, then let me say that I'm most moved by how there appears to be a semblance of the ego, or a power known to the narrator that is similar to "that little voice in our head". However, Rumi brings forth the voice as having unwanted and, at times, wanted control over the actions/thoughts/words of the narrator. It is though there is a shadow force managing some drunken part of the mind. I call it ego!

And don't we all have this little voice that likes to remind us of our lack of success/failures or how things should have been? For me, Rumi calls it out and asks, who is speaking for me? If this voice isn't my own, why does it speak? I also love that he calls in the drunk; the one voice that yells the loudest. There is likely no correcting the voice, as it has its place. Trust me, trying to fight this voice and silence its presence is a battle not easily won. But I love the question Rumi poses - who speaks for me? As I reflect on this, I wonder who that really, really is?

Thursday, July 30, 2015

Bouldering In Squamish With Jason Kehl - Video

I continue to be impressed with Kehl's creativity and insight in to the rocks of this world... Furthermore, I'm fantasizing about Squamish right now (would love a do-over of that trip!!!!)... Enjoy a place I would have liked to experience again...


Wednesday, July 29, 2015

"On Average We Spend 40% Of Our Time Lost In Thought..."

About a year ago, a friend of mine strongly suggested I practice meditation... He had noticed that I was repeating patterns of behavior that seemed to frustrate me, and cause pain in my life. I attempted sitting down for a few weeks to practice. Let's just say that if I had to label something a failure in my life it would have been trying my hand at meditation! I think I committed to about a two days of sitting down with my thoughts. My thoughts won out, and I ended up repeating the painful pattern again and again. All that said, I've studied mindfulness and the idea of serious meditation, and I'm intrigued but terrified at what I might find or lose - call that my ego. Enter this TedTalk...

I was absolutely blown over by the comment that 40% of our day is spent lost in thought. What Andy Puddicombe, a Mindfulness Expert, highlights here is that we lose out on the present, and thus creativity and innovation. We are so caught up in the bullshit that we lose out on what's happening now. And, frankly, we are judged on the present moment, and not our future self. Thus, doesn't it behoove us to keep closer to mindful behavior? So, now on to a few deep breaths...

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Break Out

Guess who?
Well, in this place,
I've got the manifest, yes.
I play the goals from the deepest,
And I do sweat the weakest.
It is me, drop, look up and see.
A rhythm, melody and spirit above me:
A break out in poetry,
Ideas in fluidity,
Spiritual fucking synergy.
And I let it out slowly...
So who is that me?
I'd say, has a lot to do with she.
A new muse in a newly frantic free.
And she wants the poet, the rhymer,
The thinker, and shiner.
Me, her, closer and closer back out to me!